Yes, it's been far too long since I've updated this thing! I thought today would be a good day to do it.
I have been EXTREMELY happily married since August 25, 2007! Life has changed, but only for the better. I am happier and I know I made the right decision.
However, despite living in marital bliss, I have found myself living in a quagmire of stress. I feel like it just snuck up on my while I was sleeping. Or maybe I was in denial that I was stressed. Anyway, I find myself feeling anxious most days which is completely contrary to my laid-back personality. I find myself worried about the fact that I am having my first child in late February and I have so many financial issues. I find myself wondering how my husband and I will be able to afford everything. Finally, I am worried about graduating from grad school on time as my internship doing refugee resettlement dwindles down to its final months. I should be finishing my internship right around the same time as our little son is due.
I realize that all of these issues can be resolved with a little bit of elbow grease. Or maybe I just need a magic wand. In any case, I am feeling overwhelmed. The same thing happened to me around this time last year; I was the victim of too many changes at once! Last year I moved from North Dakota to Vermont, started grad school, and got accepted to Peace Corps Morocco. Only a year later, I am married, expecting a baby, living in New Hampshire, working as an intern instead of a Peace Corps volunteer, and I am trying to work on my capstone so that I can try to graduate two or three months after giving birth!
So perhaps I just really need this short Christmas vacation coming up in December. A time to reconnect with my roots in North Dakota and reflect on how far I've come. A time to bring my present and my past together to prepare for my future. Perhaps the best thing I've done recently was get a pedicure, despite the fact that the machine at the nail salon broke and water began pouring onto the floor. And maybe the better thing will be to go to Cameroon finally with our son and breathe in the African air that has been calling me.
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Nice to hear your update, Rachel! Congrats on the son! I can't imagine how exciting it must be when you discover the gender of your child. I'm very impressed that you still plan to grad in May. Just remember, life won't end if you need a few more months! Little bits at a time...
That IS a lot of change in a short time. Although, Adrian and I had no idea a year ago that we'd be spending a year of our lives in Tajikistan. But, such is the nature of the path we've chosen with all this international and development work. And I'm sure you'll see a lot more in depth in Cameroon with your new family than if you had gone to Africa as an "expat". Now it's your home too!
Looking forward to your future chapters.
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